Local Woman Missing by Mary Kubica



PROLOGUE


            11 Years Before

            There’s a smudge of lipstick on the collar of his shirt. She sees it. She says nothing about it. Instead, she stands there, bobbing the crying baby up and down like the needle of a sewing machine piercing fabric. She listens to his lame lies, his same, dispassionate Sorry I’m late, buts he reels off almost every night. He must have an arsenal of them amassed, and he uses them in rotation: a bottleneck on the expressway, a coworker with car trouble, getting stuck on the phone with some apoplectic policyholder whose house fire wasn’t covered because of insufficient documentation of the damage. The more specific he is, the more sure she is of his betrayal. Still, she says nothing. If she presses him on it, he gets mad. He turns it around on her. Are you calling me a liar? For this reason, she lets it go. And also because it would be a double standard for her to make a big deal of the lipstick.

            “It’s fine,” she says, taking her eyes off the lipstick.

            They eat dinner together. They watch some TV.

            Later that night, she puts the baby to bed, feeding her at the last minute so that she won’t wake hungry while she’s gone.

            She tells him she’s going for a run. “Now?” he asks. It’s after ten o’clock when she steps from the bedroom in running clothes and shoes.

            “Why not?” she asks.

            He stares at her too long, his expression unclear. “When people do dumb shit like this, they always wind up dead.”

            She’s not sure what to make of his words, whether he means running alone late at night or cheating on one’s husband. She convinces herself it’s the first one.

            She swallows. Her saliva is thick. She’s been anticipating this all day. Her mind is made up. “When else do you expect me to go?”

            All day long, she’s home alone with their baby. She has no time to herself.

            He shrugs. “Suit yourself.” He rises from the sofa and stretches. He’s going to bed.

            She goes out the front door, leaving it unlocked so she doesn’t have to carry keys. She runs only the first block so that if he’s watching out the bedroom window, he sees.

            At the corner, she stops and sends a text: On my way.

            The reply: See you there.

            She deletes the conversation from her phone. Is she as transparent as her husband? Is what she’s doing as obvious as the lipstick on his shirt? She doesn’t think so. Her husband is hot-blooded. If he had any idea she was sneaking out to hook up with some guy in his parked car on 4th Avenue, where the street dead-ends a hundred feet from the last house, he’d have beaten her to within an inch of her life by now.

            She walks along the street. The night is quiet. It’s the only time of day she looks forward to, lost in the anticipation of some guy she hardly knows indulging her for a while, making her feel good.

            He isn’t the first man she’s cheated on her husband with. He won’t be the last.

            After the baby was born, she tried to quit, to be faithful, but it wasn’t worth the effort.

            This guy says his name is Sam. She’s not sure she believes it. She’s been seeing him off and on for months, whenever he or she gets the urge. She met him when she was pregnant of all things. To some guys, it’s a turn-on. He made her feel sexy, despite the extra weight, which is far more than she could say for her husband.

            Like her, Sam is married. And he isn’t the only guy she’s been seeing on the side.