The Monster Keeps Me Safe by Kitty Thomas





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My beta reader at the time and I tossed this one back and forth working out the logistics. I finally realize why more murder doesn’t happen in the world. Body disposal is a bitch. It’s probably better to just light fire to poop on the porches of your enemies. (Also, I’m probably on a list for the research I had to do.)



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I love also that Shannon, though so detached and hard to connect with, finds it very important to keep Elodie because she, like the white cat, “makes him feel something” and anyone or anything that makes him feel something is to be kept and treasured. He can’t just replace her with someone else because the odds he’ll ever find someone who sparks this tiny ember of humanity in him again is pretty slim.



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Some readers couldn’t forgive Elodie killing an innocent at the end. And I totally understand that, but it’s the thing that fully and completely seals her to Shannon. They have a secret between them and now she’s a monster (who kept Shannon safe). It’s almost like an initiation or a proving of loyalty. You’re not supposed to like her for doing it. You don’t even have to understand, but at the end of the day just like Shannon puts her and the white cat above all other living creatures, she has chosen to put Shannon even above the life of an innocent. Not heroic, but these two aren’t heroes, except for each other.



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I’ve always said I like the anti-hero/villain better than the hero because the anti-hero/villain puts what he WANTS first, including his woman. The hero puts “saving the world” first. Do all the random strangers in the world deserve more from him than the woman he claims to love? Heroes are so often liars (intellectually), and I value honesty above all other things. So give me an honest villain any day.



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But, anyway… I ramble… I re-released this book with a new title and cover in order to appeal to the market it’s designed for. I think also any time an author goes back in and re-releases a work, there is a huge temptation to edit/rewrite/change things. The original came out in the summer of 2016, and though I think the work holds its own, I’ve grown so much as a writer in that time.



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But someone on my ARC team reminded me of something: “The magic is in the first piece”. (Thank you, Agent Edgewater.)



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What this means is that the mystical/magic/soul etc of a piece of art is in it’s original form. (I don’t think packaging counts here!) This resonates with me and for this reason I’ve chosen not to “fix” anything and leave it as it stands. I feel differently about adaptations of course because that’s “new art”, but this… I felt like I would hurt the energy of the work if I messed around with the content of the story after the fact. So I haven’t touched a thing. The inner content is exactly the same book as was released in 2016 under the old title, both to keep the magic intact and out of respect for my readers who loved it the first way.



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I may start including little rambly letters to readers about the book and behind-the-scenes at the end of my books. There are often things I want to tell you but I can’t put it in a blog post because it will ruin/spoil the book for those who haven’t read it. I can assume if you’re reading this, you’ve read the book, and if you skipped to the end and read the author’s note, I can’t say I feel much pity for you about that. I did my best to protect you.



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Love,



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Kitty ^.^





Acknowledgments





Thank you to the following people for their help with Tabula Rasa (The Monster Keeps Me Safe):



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Amy Martin for her help with French translation.



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Robin Ludwig @ gobookcoverdesign.com for the fabulous cover art!



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Thank you to Cathy for copyedits!



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Thank you to Michelle and Karen for their great beta read suggestions! Special thanks to Michelle for all the body disposal help. Who knew getting rid of bodies was so much work! ;)