Of Mist and Mirrors by Rebecca Connolly

ChapterOne

London, 1826

The event was a crush if ever there was one. Every foot of the ballroom seemed to contain someone, if not two someones, and how there was still room for dancing was impossible to say. But music was filling what space was not filled by a person, ringing clearly throughout, and the cadence of dancers’ steps was just as audible.

Minerva Dalton could not see any of the dancing, but there was no denying what she heard.

A crowded event would certainly make her assignment easier, as her motions and objectives would not be so easily observed, but it would also make things that much more difficult, given the sheer volume of guests. Had the Drummonds been unable to resist inviting all of London Society to their ball? Surely they were not on friendly terms with this many people, or even knew them beyond a passing acquaintance. Why would anybody choose to invite more people than a room had space for, particularly when their ballroom was the largest Minerva had ever seen?

Considering she had spent many, many hours in the ballroom of what had once been known as Beddingsford House, but was now the Miss Masters School for Fine Young Ladies, she thought she could safely make such a statement.

“I don’t know that it is wise for Lady Beddingsford to frown so on her first appearance in Society,” a familiar, warm voice murmured beside her, a gentle nudge tapping her elbow.

Minerva immediately forced a small, polite smile on her lips, praying it would look more serene than she felt. “Lady Beddingsford is unused to such events, Miss Bradford, and to this many people milling about. If one can mill about whilst colliding into another person.”

Miss Bradford, headmistress of the Miss Masters school, otherwise known as Pippa, and professionally known to Minerva as Milliner, the chief female spy in all of England, grinned in amusement, looking years younger in her present finery. “I shall set my mind to finding the proper definition of milling once the evening has concluded.”

“Please do, I am rather curious now.”

The women shared a quick laugh before looking about them again. Minerva, for one, took the chance to study her friend and companion a little more. With all that Pippa had to do, both in her public life as the headmistress and in her private life as a spymistress, she was still taking the time to assist Minerva in her first event on this new assignment of hers. The fall term had started a few weeks ago, but the mission took priority over the students and coursework. It would not be possible to balance both coursework and the assignment, not when so much was required.

The new teacher, Lucy Allred, would be covering Minerva’s courses until her return, and Pippa had assured Minerva that she would see Lucy was paid additionally for that.

The poor girl would need those funds.

Minerva calculated quickly in her mind, guessing that her friend and mentor was not yet five-and-thirty, and she so rarely bore the strain of her years as spymistress upon her countenance. She might not bear the first bloom one might expect of young misses in Society, but there was no denying that Pippa Bradford was still a lovely woman. It was so easy to forget when one was in the confines of the school and their rather simple attire there. But tonight, swathed in silk of azure blue, Pippa looked no more than five-and-twenty, and it would not surprise Minerva a jot if she were to be asked to dance several times.

But Pippa was only here in an advisory capacity, as herself, using the connection to the school and the Beddingsford family to introduce Minerva into Society.

As Lady Beddingsford, not as Minerva Dalton.

There was no Lady Beddingsford, in truth. Nor a Lord Beddingsford, for that matter. The title had fallen vacant and been returned to the king, though as far as the public knew, the last Lord Beddingsford had sold his estate, settled his affairs in England, and moved to the Continent or beyond, never to return. It was entirely possible that he had married there and had children.

That was the mystery they were playing on for Minerva’s character in this assignment. Lady Beddingsford, wife to the heir of all things Beddingsford, returned to England for a time. Not to take up a place in the family estate, as it was now a school, but simply to return to Society. Or make an appearance, if she had never been.

The details of her story were entirely up to Minerva for construction, as the assignment would be a solitary one. No partners, no team, no co-conspirators. She always worked better alone in her operative assignments, and this would be no exception.

There was too much at stake to bring someone else in anyway.

But heaven help her, assignments taking place in a ballroom were her least favorite of all. This was not her first time doing so, but it was certainly going to be the most lasting and extensive. She was required to become part of London Society without being notable in it. Entertain several invitations, but not enter any scandal sheets. It required the sort of expertise that Minerva cultivated well—that of being everyone and no one at the same time, both visible and invisible, taking part and yet remaining aloof. Attracting attention and somehow remaining unremarkable.

Making an impression without anyone being quite able to place her.

There was only one other operative she knew of who could do the same thing, and the pair of them had, on rare occasions, discussed their skills. But the Gent was not here this evening, or if he was, he was nowhere to be seen. No matter, she could not remember his public name as it was.

Minerva inhaled, then exhaled in irritation when her inhale was constricted. “I don’t know why Tilda felt the need to lace me so tightly. Just because I prefer the old style of stays does not mean I deserve punishment.”

“I don’t think she was offended in truth, no matter how she played at it,” Pippa assured her, though she did not look especially convinced. “Besides, you look absolutely exquisite.”

That might have been true, but surely it was not too much trouble on one’s fashion to breathe. But Tilda, the stage costumer who offered her services to many of the nation’s operatives, had insisted on fitting Minerva out for her first foray as Lady Beddingsford.

She wore a crepe-lisse gown of Pomona green with low sleeves, the bodice wrapped in folds of white crepe-lisse, with a notched tucker bearing a corsage of white roses, the fabrics fitted so snugly to her stays, it was a wonder the lines of such were not visible beneath. Her arms were trapped in those sleeves, despite the fact that her shoulders were almost fully visible above them, encased in more notched ruches of the same white crepe-lisse and green satin rouleau. Thankfully, her elbows were free of fabric, but raising her arms would be a feat, indeed. More white roses and bows of the green ribbon decorated the skirts, the ends of the bows somehow connecting to wreathes of more green satin that swirled around the entire skirt. A thick row of puffed crepe-lisse and somehow more satin, this time wadded up, lay at the hem, the temptation to kick the thing almost impossible in Minerva’s mind. Her waist was cinched somehow further by a wide satin sash of white, and all in all, she only felt more constricted in the aspect that was her hair.

Tilda had insisted on foisting a headdress on her, something in the same Pomona green as her gown but also bearing pearls. Her hair had been folded and shaped into actual bows, along with plaits, on either side of the headdress, and a comb fastening her hair with the tightest pulling Minerva had ever known in her entire life. If it was possible for one to have a headache at the crown of their head, she would have one shortly. She thought there were also white flowers and pearl pins in her hair somewhere, but as everything felt scratched and pulled, she could not be sure. Her necklace was gold and pearl, her earrings were gold and pearl, her long gloves were a perfectly pearl white, and she bore bracelets of gold on each wrist, which were starting to feel like manacles.

She did not feel exquisite, elegant, fine, or lovely. She felt trussed up, trapped, slightly itchy, and uncomfortable.

Was this what it was to be in Society? How in the world did any woman smile like this? They ought to have been marching on the villains who insisted this was the way of things and take over their own fashions. Something comfortable, perhaps, that could also be flattering. Surely that was not so difficult to accomplish.

“You hate this, don’t you?” Pippa murmured.

Minerva cleared her throat, suddenly aware that the woman beside her was not only her friend and mentor, but her superior. “No, not at all. I am quite at my leisure,” she told her, falling into the highly cultivated accent she had perfected over the last few weeks in preparation. She had injected a touch of a foreign tone to it, as someone who had lived away from England for some time might, and hoped that it would be believable to those who heard it. She had never had trouble with her accents before, so there was no reason to suspect this would be different.

Looking about her, Minerva smiled with the regal airs she had once seen the queen use for the public. “One must adjust to the dictates of fashion for appropriate events, yes?”

Pippa raised a brow, her smile slight. “I suppose…”

“Then I am quite well, indeed.” She snapped open her fan and began to gently wave it, praying that somehow the breeze of it would infuse her lungs with more air than they could naturally exchange. “A pity they are not announcing guests this evening. If I am to expand my circle, it would help very much to be able to be selective rather than try for everyone when it may not be worth my time.”

“A great pity, my lady,” Pippa conceded without missing a beat. “But there are a great many people I can introduce you to myself, should you wish it.”

It was not unusual for Minerva to play a part with other operatives she knew well, but it was rare, indeed, for Pippa to take part, given her public station as the headmistress of such a popular finishing school. But as this mission required a public persona, she was actually a rather useful connection for the person of Lady Beddingsford to have.

Which was undoubtedly one of the reasons they had chosen Beddingsford for the title in all of this. Not the sole reason, of course, but one of them.

“Voyez-vous quelqu’un que vous reconnaissez?”Pippa asked in a polite tone, her pronunciation as perfect as ever. “Quelqu’un du passé, peut-être?”

Minerva shook her head, biting back a sigh as she looked around the room, taking in each face and comparing it with the sketches she had studied in preparation. “Non, pas un seul.”

Pippa nodded once. “Would you like to take a turn about the room, my lady? We could take stock of the guests and you could see if there are any introductions you would like me to make.”

Nodding, Minerva gestured for Pippa to lead. “I would, Miss Bradford, thank you.”

They made their way from their position to walk along the outskirts of the room, which proved to be some feat, given the sheer number of people about, but there was something about ladies in motion that prompted polite shifting of bodies to allow their passage. It proved to be an interesting exercise, as several people recognized Pippa and greeted her with smiles or brief comments, and yet attention was given to Minerva in equal measure, if not more. Pippa did not stop to talk with anyone, so introductions were not needed, but it was clear there was interest there.

Perfect.

It was entirely possible that their interest was purely curiosity and speculation, but that could be enough to garner the invitations she would need. They would begin to talk about the woman seen with Miss Bradford, the one arrayed in more finery than her, the one no one recognized or knew, and her name would find a way to reach all of them.

The next few days would be an intriguing set, indeed.

“Oh, Miss Bradford!”

Pippa paused a step as a voice called out rather loudly, almost warbling in its tone.

“Why do I know that voice?” Minerva muttered very softly.

Pippa patted her hand gently as the caller suddenly appeared through the crowd. “Ah, Mrs. Pearson, how delightful to see you!”

Minerva swallowed a groan and lifted her chin a little in preparation for introduction, though she already knew the woman perfectly well in her life as a teacher. Mrs. Pearson had four daughters, the youngest of whom was still at their school, and while Catherine Pearson held all the potential in the world for a promising future, her mother did not. She was a tyrannical woman when it came to her girls, repeatedly sending letters to ask that her daughters be excused from lessons in the more scholarly subjects so as to not grow too much like bluestockings. She wanted idiots for daughters. Not in so many words, but the result would be the same.

Luckily for their present aims, Mrs. Pearson also took no pains to know any of the teachers at the school, only Pippa. And if Pippa had not been in a position of authority, Mrs. Pearson would not have wanted to know her either.

“I am happy to see you in London, Miss Bradford,” Mrs. Pearson told her with a broad smile that did not reach her eyes. “It is never too late for a husband, you know, and you are not so far beyond your youth as to make you unsightly.”

Pippa did not so much as stiffen, well used to this sort of thing from her students and their parents by now. “Indeed, and thank you for the compliment. How did Catherine enjoy her summer holidays?”

Mrs. Pearson beamed in an almost eerie manner. “Oh, wonderful! She did not read any books at all, her dancing has vastly improved, her singing far better in pitch, and her embroidery more skillful than any of her sisters. Whatever changes you have implemented in your curriculum have been extremely beneficial for her.”

“I am very glad to hear it,” Pippa said warmly. “Mrs. Pearson, do you know Lady Beddingsford?”

Mrs. Pearson looked at Minerva with wide eyes, her complexion going a trifle pale in her awe. “Lady… Beddingsford?”

Minerva dipped her chin in a nod.“Ravi de faire votre connaissance, madame.Charmed, as you say.”

The hasty curtsy Mrs. Pearson offered was almost laughable in its instability. “Merci, my lady,” she replied in a dreadful accent. “Any relation to the Beddingsfords of Beddingsford House?”

“Indeed,” Minerva answered, keeping her words clipped. “My husband’s family. He was born abroad, you know, as was his father before him. I have only just come to London, and Miss Bradford is kind enough to help me to get comfortable here.”

“Do you plan to stay, then?” Mrs. Pearson asked, her eyes suddenly growing bright, no doubt from the opportunity presenting itself. “Without your husband?”

Minerva looked away, pursing her lips. “I do not know, madame. We will see. And I pray you excuse me, I do not like to speak of my husband.”

“O-of course, my lady,” came the rushed reply. “No apology necessary, I did not mean to cause pain or offense.”

“It is quite a delicate situation, Mrs. Pearson,” Pippa offered soothingly. “Lady Beddingsford’s plans are not yet settled, but perhaps once they are, she might call on you if need be?”

Minerva would have to step on Pippa’s toes for that, but unfortunately, she wore satin slippers tonight, and nothing with a heel to make the excursion especially painful. As if she would ever want to call upon Mrs. Pearson or ever see her again in any fashion. And if Catherine were in the house, she might recognize Minerva, having just taken one of her courses at school.

Her disguise was excellent, there was no question, but her students surprised her with their attentiveness at times. Which was usually when she recommended them for the testing required to enter the secret operative training program also held at the school. It did not always work out that they did so, given the other requirements, but every now and again…

“I will inform Catherine that I saw you upon my return to the school, Mrs. Pearson,” Pippa was saying, bringing Minerva back to the conversation she had been ignoring. “And, of course, let her teachers know of her improvements.”

Pippa was quick to whisk Minerva away before Mrs. Pearson could respond further.

“Why would you tell that woman I would call upon her?” Minerva hissed.

“I said could, my lady,” Pippa corrected in a low voice. “It would not surprise me a jot if that woman proved to be of interest.”

Realization dawned and Minerva nodded slowly, smiling very slightly. “A little bias in that statement, Miss Bradford?”

“I haven’t the faintest idea what you are talking about,” Pippa quipped, sniffing very slightly.

Minerva choked a laugh, shaking her head in amusement. “Of course not.”

They moved to another portion of the room, pausing in a slightly opened space to breathe a moment. Again, more people greeted Pippa or acknowledged her, and one or two took a closer look at Minerva.

“I wonder when the novelty will wear off,” Minerva murmured, waving her fan gently again. “When the gawking will cease.”

“Probably never,” Pippa said bluntly, giving her a sidelong look. “But it should not stop you. Once you are more familiar with these circumstances and these people, you will adjust.”

Minerva nodded once, her operative training and experience reminding her of that. “I always do. This is simply more exposure than I am used to.”

Pippa hummed a very soft laugh. “And this isn’t even all that public, my lady. All things considered, it is still fairly secluded, especially given what plans you have made.”

“Thank heavens,” Minerva said firmly, feeling an unsettling shudder run up her spine. There was nothing in her past that could have prepared her for this sort of assignment in all its particulars, despite all of the missions she had taken previously. Her skills as an operative were not in question, and her ability to adapt to any given situation in place. But finery was not part of her person or her nature in her childhood, adolescence, or adulthood. There had never been anything akin to high society for her.

She had been part of operations where she had needed to portray someone in high society, but it had been for one event only. Not an extended operation where she had to not only make connections, but maintain them for however long this assignment took. And it was entirely possible that it would take a very long time. So much so that they had made contingency plans for her position at the school, should the situation arise that she was unable to return due to her continuing assignment.

She could only pray that would not be the case. If she was trapped in this world for that long, she ought to be pulled from the position due to failure.

“Pardon me, my lady.”

Minerva adopted her persona again and turned to the approaching woman, recalling her name with shocking ease. “Yes, Mrs. Mills?”

Mrs. Mills, whom she had met early in the evening, was absolutely bursting with excitement, which seemed in complete contrast to the woman she had met earlier. “My lady, I have the most remarkable news for you.”

“Indeed, madame?” Minerva asked, wondering how anything could be remarkable news for a woman who had only just appeared in London Society. “Pray, do tell.”

In another stark contrast to the woman she had met and the evening she had known thus far, the woman took Minerva’s hands and squeezed them. “Your husband arrived almost an hour ago, my lady.”

Minerva blinked, staring at this new acquaintance in shock. “I beg your pardon?”

Clearly thinking she was emotional in her disbelief rather than confused, Mrs. Mills only beamed. “Lady Beddingsford, your husband is here. Lord Beddingsford is just as fashionable as you, madam—a waistcoat of spun gold on him! He said nothing of your being here either, but I could not resist letting you know right away. Lord Beddingsford is here, my lady!”

The conversation around her softened dramatically, not to a full silence, but low enough that her reactions would be heard.

“Oh… oh my…” Minerva swallowed, unable to say anything else. “Thank you for telling me.”

Mrs. Mills squeezed her hands again before she turned to gesture in the direction of the supposed husband.

Thinking quickly, Minerva put a hand to her face and turned to Pippa as though emotional, knowing her mentor would see her enraged and confused eyes. “You said there was no Lord Beddingsford!” she hissed.

Pippa put her hands on her arms to comfort her faux tears. “There isn’t!” she insisted through a false smile. “Cap swore it was the perfect cover.”

Minerva widened her eyes, grinding her teeth together.

What was this? Were they compromised so early in the mission? Who else could possibly know about this title, let alone well enough to use it?

Could there possibly be a true Lord Beddingsford that none of them knew about?

For the first time she could ever recall, Pippa’s eyes and expression held no answers, guidance, or instruction.

This was Minerva’s assignment, and she needed to act. Somehow.

She took in a quick breath, then exhaled slowly before turning to look where Mrs. Mills had indicated.

A group of three or four men were staring back at them, one of them bearing the telltale gold-spun waistcoat and eyeing her with a mixture of confusion, horror, and even interest.

She could only hope her expression was less readable.

“Beddingsford, I presume?” she muttered to no one in particular.

Unfortunately, her words were heard.

“Oh, my lady,” someone near her gushed, “has it been so long that you cannot remember your husband’s face?”

This was becoming more and more a production, and the impending reunion of sorts was beginning to attract attention. Even a pathway between the supposed Beddingsfords had been created, despite the crush of the event.

There was a cruel irony in that.

“I just… I cannot believe he is here,” Minerva managed with a measure of emotion for effect. She heard the gushing woman gasp, which seemed as much as she could hope for.

Now for the actual reunion, which could not be avoided any longer. Not if she wanted her cover to remain intact.

Sighing to herself, knowing several guests were now watching in anticipation, and could ruin the entire assignment if she didn’t act quickly, she started forward. Swallowing her faux emotion, and a significant portion of her pride, she increased her pace until she was nearly flying at him.

“Oh, Beddingsford, I’ve missed you so!” she cried out, forcing a catch in her throat. She raised her trapped arms as high as they would go, seizing his gold waistcoat and wrenching him down to her, capturing his lips with hers in the most passionate, desperate, confounding kiss she could imagine.